Well, I have once again returned... Not much to share except for the overwhelming excitement of the fact I only have 11 weeks of grad school left. I have no idea what I will do with my MBA once I get it, but at least I will be done.

Home life has been great. Courtney is growing and loves to be a 3 year old. Now if I could learn to live with 3 year old behavior, that is not coming from my husband, life would be great. She tends to know exactly how to push my buttons and she is so good at it! I hope she grows out of it before she blossoms into a teenager. We ask her if she wants a baby brother or a baby sister and she just replies, "No." So I guess I get her view on the matter. I so desperately want a boy, but as long as the baby is healthy that is all that matters. It turns out I am technically due on March 31, 2003. Perhaps it will all turn out to be an April's Fools Joke! Definately not the way I am feeling! What else?

Well, my friend has not left his wife, but he is considering his options. He thinks he wants to divorce and remain co habitating in the same house for the sake of finances and his daughter. I just agree with whatever he wants and I try to be a supportive friend to him. In the end, it is up to him. I just hope he makes a decision that will make him happy.

Work is work. Same shit, different day. I continue to feel like I let F/OM down on occasion. However, I am trying to deal with my own feelings of inadequacy. It has been worse lately, because I have been so sick and listless at work. Although, I do still ove what I do. We have been doing some "bonding" lately, just talking about minimal aspects of our personal lives. He is such a different person when stress is not looming over us. Good to know HRP is leaving in a couple weeks for a few weeks. Will be a nice release for those times.

Not much else to share, except a miracle... My grandmother called me today, just to see how I am doing. She usually only calls me to make me feel like shit or tell me someone is sick or dead. SHe did slip it in that my grandfather's cancer is spreading. He has had no chemo for a year and he might start again, because the cancer has gond to his lungs and stomach. It has also engulfed his liver. He was given 6 months well over 3 years ago. Medicine is amazing! However, I wonder if it is all worth for the quality of life he is leading? I never want to grow old. However, I never want Courtney to have to be without a parent. Especially for the important times in her life. I have missed my parents for every milestone in my life. I am sure they are looking out for me, especially dad, but it would be nicer with them here. Expecially since I know he would have been so great with his granddaughter. She would have loved to paly with him! I miss my dad.

Well kids, the phantom blogger must go... Hopefully to return sooner than last time.
posted by Charolette at 7:24 PM