Why does it happen in threes?

Ok, so today pretty much sucked. No other politically correct way to put it.

At home my husband continues to be disappointed in my fruitless efforts to be a good wife and mother. I am going to school, mothering, wifing, moving up the not so corporate ladder (with the puppet strings attached) and I am just trying to make a better life for my family. However, I know I neglect some things, like communication and quality time with the family. I know I can't cook, but I HATE TO COOK! Courtney is a spolied brat because I am not around her enough to give her the parenting she needs. When I am around her I am so tired or burned out I snap at her. The husband seeks love and comfort all the sudden, where has he been for the last almost 10 years? All the sudden now that I am trying to make something of our life and family he wants to be involved and expects me to be as well. I know I am being unfair to him, but I am trying.

So, the wonderful husband took one of our four cats to the "cat doctor" today (as Courtney calls her). And as it turns out Claude, our third cat, may be experiencing kidney failure. He has gone from 12.2# to 6# in like three months. So, we may have to put him to sleep very soon. I am not good at dealing with this and how does one explain to a 2 year old what happened to "Tod" as she calls him since she can not yet pronounce the "c" sound?

The third thing of the day and certainly not the last...

Lab Rat and Cavalier are leaving me at Two Strikes with the other 15 members of the DC club. I dug the hole I am in there and if it were not for a "debt" of time for tuition reimburesement I too might leave now. I truly love what I am doing right now, but I question my loyalty for who I am doing it for. As Cav says, F/OM is a wonderful person if he gets the chance to let his guard down. However, I fear he has been burnt way to many times for doing just that and he just can't afford to do it again. Not for sake of his job, but his mere sanity and ability to operate day to day. So to Lab Rat and Cav, I wish you both all the luck in your escapes. As I said before I wonder how much longer CTL will last. That would certainly open the eyes of F/OM to possibly plan his escape for sake of the inability to maintain any sort fo consistency. Prior to an incident with the puppeteer on 5/10/02 I was ready to commit to the agency at least 2 more years, but after the events of that day... It truly ripped my spirit and excitement apart. Now I just want to make it until I graduate and can seek other opportunities.

So my new dilemma, so I can bitch and whine even more... How does one say no to too much work? I am assistant to 2 people who obviously need to converse about a schedule. My question is, is it appropriate for me to initiate this schedule. Both "supervisors" are of medium to no organization and call me in at teh drop of a hat to accomplish tasks "by teh end of the day." I think "the end of the day" needs a clear definition. They are both excellent to work for and I expect to learn a great deal of skills from each of them. However, if one doesn't kill me, the other one will. Perhaps I bring this on myself, becasue I won't say no. But I did just begin this job and I am still trying to figure out how to request letter head instead of begging others for it.

I do thank the Lab Rat and Cav for their guidance and assistance. They each have been a great asset to my "succes" thus far. Especially Cav for taking the time to do today what F/OM just couldn't do even though the project was for him.

I will close this with one thought... WHEN THE HELL IS HAPPY HOUR???
posted by Charolette at 7:47 PM