It is amazing the types of people we work with. There are the wonderful people who you look forward to seeing each day, there are the quiet ones who you never notice, there are the assholes you wish would not exist, there are the idiots who can't do their job AND make more than you do and then there are the fucks ups, they just can't, wont' and don't do anything.

If I were to take a poll of my co-workers, at least the 2 or 3 I talk to, I would have to say we might agree that our workplace primarily consists of the fuck up category. Consequently, it has become mental and physical anguish to go to work each day and listen to their shit and see their fake smiling faces when the important people are around. I however am a peon in my workplace and I get little to no acknowledgement, which is fine by mine. At this place it is best to be the fly onthe wall or the one sitting in the corner with their hands over their mouth. I have been witnessing a situation with a co-worker who is going through hell with an administrator and I am afraid to discuss anything I have seen even though it would clear my co-worker, but then I am sure I would be a marked woman destined to a life of being driven out the door. I just got a "promotion" to a job I am not sure I am qualified for, but hey I'll try anyhting once. I wonder if I am going to get any respect from others in this new job, because I may be moving out of peon status. Possibly, so where would I rather be?

With other peons making peanuts or in the middle of the fuck ups making a few more peanuts?

I admit it- I am driven by teh peanuts. I need all the peanuts I can get. So what if I am doing job I have no idea what the hell I am doing... that is why there is training. And you know what, who cares what all those fuck ups at work think... I am going to prove what I can do and then I am going to laugh at all of them when I am off into teh real world at a job where fuck ups are the ones that are cleaning my office when I go home at the end of the day.
posted by Charolette at 7:19 PM

I did my work last night and I am paying for it today. Sleep can not come soon enough today and unfortunately it is only 12 pm. What a long day this is going to be. I am frustrated with my job, but am anxious to be leaving it soon. I look forward to new opportunities to learn and build my resume. It is unusually quiet here today and that worries me. The highlight of my day thus far- when I opened my morning Mountain Dew to find I was a winner of a free one! Somewhat pathetic, but at least I am a winner of something that will help me through tomorrow.
posted by Charolette at 9:17 AM

So now I am faced with a decision... do I sit here and complain about my crappy job or do I sit here and get my work done for tomorrow. It is after all my time for me, but I know I need to get this work done and I just don't want to do it! Thanks to BT for my welcome, very kind and warm. This shall be fun even if no ghetto sandwhiches are involved. I also have homework to complete this evening and there are just not enough hours in the night. So, I guess I just shut up and move on to the writings that pay my bills!
posted by Charolette at 9:25 PM

Ok, so I realized, I lead a boring life and I am the only one who can do anything about it. So what do I do, I listen to a wonderful friend and end up here. What do I expect to gain from this experience? Who knows? I have learned to expect nothing then I can not be disappointed. However, I have also learned the more I expect the less I get... so again where does that lead me? Here? There? I have no idea.

I have learned a lot about myself in recent years. Marriage and child have brought me closer to myself and insanity all at the same time. I also have realized how much I miss life before these life changers. I wish I had known BT back then. This is the woman who can not commit to a tattoo and she is older than I was when I got married. Where was she to give me words of wisdom then? Here I am married (happily on a good day) and I am constantly looking for something to do with someone else. My husband is my best friend and I shudder to think of a day without him, but he is so boring and predictable. The biggest excitement for me each day is what happens at work and that is pretty pathetic.

So, here begins my writings. Who knows how long I will keep up with this. Perhaps I will find peace here so I can just ramble about nothing.
posted by Charolette at 8:20 PM